Maternal Warmth and Other Excerpts From The Womb

                                                                       Warmth:

    This entire experience of being jammed up on the house with my family has revealed a new territory that I never even knew counted for something. I undermined motherhood to a great degree due to my parent's divorce and internalized resentment. I thought motherhood was a frivolous pre-occupation, taken on by women lacking real purpose and enough ambition to make it to the top of the Corporate Ladder. 

    If you asked me a few years ago what I wanted from life, I would tell you an Executive Position for a major Publishing Firm in New York and an ever-growing potential to be even greater. There was also more stuff I added to my dream career board. At one point, I changed my entire goal post to include a more exciting career.With every disappointment in life, I wanted to counter it with a bigger career goal. 

So what changed?

    Once in a life someone comes around who shakes up your entire existence and makes you rearrange that ambition. Not because it's not in his self-interest. In fact, it's the exact opposite. It's because he sees enough potential in me to see that I am capable of warmth and accepting my maternal instincts. I feel so lucky to have finally become in touch with my feminine side, thanks to my new relationship. My year started off heavily on the same broken record of Achievement, and now, thanks to him, I found a care-free existence; the type only a mother can bring into this world.